My second day at work, not as fun as I expected it to be....

DArn, I was super close to being late on my first day in training, how close? Well we had to be there by 8am and I got there at 7:58 am. Why?Why?Why was I that close to becoming late? Well I didn't expect the heavy traffic caused my the Monday Rush, I forgot that today is monday. HAhahaha... I had to run on my 2 inch heels just to get there on time.

I couldn't stop thinkinf of my ex. He works there too, we're civil but darn it took him 3 years to say sorry, three years to talk to me.

He's my first "official boyfriend" and so far my first and only boyfriend, well ex that is. We became a couple when I was on my 4th year in High School. He was a transferee from another school, and I was a loyal student to my school, I'm a recepient of the Loyalty Award, been a student there from kinder til High School. Well anyways, I instantly liked him. He was like a breath of fresh air. He had all the qualities that I was looking for in a guy. Musically inclined, had a close relationship with God and he was the silent one. Everybody knew that I crushed on him. And we eventually became a couple on our JS Prom.

Everything was going fine, we have been together for almost 3 months when he broke up with me. I knew the reason was that he still loved his ex girlfriend. But of course that's not what he told me, what he said was that their pastor told him to break up with me. Being a stup*d little girl I believed in him. But of course as I mentioned above, I discovered that he got back together with his ex gf...I felt betrayed and used.

Three long years after that happened he sent me a text message via chikka, he first asked if I was me, I replied, out of plain curiousity. And then he said that he was,well for blogging purposes lets name him "lenny,"... I was surprised and asked why he texted me, he said that he wanted to say sorry for everything that he did to me. And I accepted his apology.

Now, we work together, although we're from two different shifts and accounts I still feel weird. Knowing that there's still a possibility of seeing him around excites me and scares me. What if I fall for him again? I know deep down that he would always be special in my heart and that's why I'm afraid that I might fall for him again.

Is this fate? I hope that this isn't a way for us to get back together. Because although I loved him before, I think I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I fall for him again.

I'm confused and in need of help, what to do?What to say...I wish that I would find someone who would take me away and help me forget about him. 

I'm at the coffe lounge, hahaha...yes blogging while I'm at work. Duh, its one of the perks of working here. I couldn't sleep last night, I was still thinking about random things. Things like will I ever find that one person that's meant to end up with me and why my friend keeps on making moves on me.

I'm only 19 years only and I keep on troubling myself with useless things, I have to think of something more productive. Well blogging is a productive thing to do and I guess that counts?Hahaha...

Now to blog about my day, well half of the day already passed, and I dunno, working with people older than me turned out to be something I enjoy. I value each and every single thing that they tell me, its because I know that they've gone through a lot in life already and unlike other people, they speak from experience.

While on our lunch break I heard Mommy Belle, of course another made up name, say that you shouldn't plan on things like not getting married but having a kid. That struck me, because that's what I want to do, well because I can't see myself settling down anytime soon or ever. But when I heard her say that I just looked at my food and said to myself that I should stop fantasizing about the future and just focus on the present, well I'm off to work again, I hope this inspires other people, hahaha

welcome to my world, the world of a workdyholic...

what exactly is a workdyholic?you might ask its work+study and the word holic, to indicate my passion, hahaha, to those two things...for now I would keep my identity a secret, so that there would be an air of mystery to this blog, and also because I want this blog to be more personal than my other blogs.

Little information about me should be said, of course I should at least say some stuff about me.

I'm a 19 year old working student. Single and feared by men, hahaha. I'm single by choice since I just can't find a mature guy, someone who would understand me. Contrary to the belief of many people who surround me, I have only had one relationship in the past and I didn't last that long.  A lot of my friends think that I have had lots of boyfriends and to that I should just raise an eyebrow and say "yeah, right?"

This blog would be all about me, my life as a call center agent and as a student. My course would be a secret and the school that I'm attending too.

The reason  that I have this blog is to ensure that my mental state would still be intact even if I have to juggle my time between work and school.Hahahaha. Believe me its not my choice, but I have to do it.

Now I shall let you in to how my first day at work went.

I had a hard time sleeping last night. I was tossing and turning, unable to get my much coveted 8 hours of beauty sleep. I was nervous for today, it keep on dawning on me like a flashlight that keeps on going on and off when the lights are out. I was going to step into the real world, one where mistakes are taken seriously unlike in school. And it scared me more than I thought it would. What if I do something wrong, what would happen, right? But I told myself that I have to stop overthinking and get some sleep, who knows I might spot a cuttie at the office.

Was I successful in going to sleep?yes. I woke up a little around 6am, just in time I said to myself...I checked my phone, I listened to two songs before getting up. I went downstairs charged my phone.

After fixing myself up I looked at my phone, I got a text message from my ex, he reminded me that I should wake up early that I shouldn't be late for my first day, he worked at the same call center company that I'm working. I smiled, it has been 3 years since we broke up, yet there's still something in here for him, I guess that thing that I have for him, him being special would always remain here in my heart...I got there just in time, 10 minutes to 8... I wasn't that early, but I'm not late.

The whole day was *yawn* boring, hahahaha...But there are stand out moments...

I've made two friends, both of them are older than me, let's name them maddie and kc...maddie is technically single, technically because that's what she'll put in forms but she has a bf, she's the first person who said hi to me way back in our contract signing. KC on the other hand is 26 years old, happily married and has one baby. They both told me that working is fun, but studying is way better. MAddie and KC both reminded me how important having a degree is, to this I just smiled.

I know how important education is, but there are times when one would realize that not everyone's destined to finish their schooling. And that the best teacher is experience. Failing and learning from your mistake is the best way to learn the dance of life. With this I end my first post, til next time, gypsy agent signing off...